yeah I said it
The title statement is in reference to a game of telephone picturaniytalilty pictantaray picturanary picshunary hungary uzbeckistani. telephone pictianary, (spelling), and a short poem I wrote after the game.
but.... its over, and theres a sea of thoughts and emotions that my mind will shuffle through and conjure up as it sees fit. I was thinking about that very idea tonight after the closing ceremony for the interns and street leaders. Why cant figure things out or always live in a state of emotional clarity, always remembering and considering. Why do emotions and convictions come and go almost externally of my psyche. Maybe there is something that is.
I thought of this as I was driving around after saying goodbye to fellow interns. I did something that I seem to do a lot where I didnt go straight home but drove in circles for a while trying to finish the last bit of a song I really wanted to hear. 1 song turned into four. Four songs that I listnened to a lot this summer. One of which I would keep on repeat as I would rush to captain buzzies to get a sausage egg and cheese biscuit in the time between morning devotion and the arrival of the kids for the day camp in the quest of keeping up a 5-6 thousand callorie diet. I, however, usually could only get down a mere 3-4 thousand calories. (smiley face).
so its over and what am I feeling.
Last week I was one of six interns that took the kids to SB2W in rural Pennsylvania. I dont even know where to begin about this trip. I will say a few things pretty spastically cuz thats how I do and those are
Jurfawn convulsing while singing tootie fruity by little richard on the way there and hearing him say that he was nervous about what was to come at camp.
morning run in the mist.
depression and spiritual confusion
incredible support and understanding
sitting by the lake, and doing absolutely nothing and being content, not from anything within, but with the comfort of God.
LIL WAYNE
we saw lil wayne on the way back on his tour bus, just imagine 15 inner city boys ages 10-16 in a mini bus on 95 with me at the helm and they spot lil wayne in his tour bus. one of the greatest moments ever. period.
a peace that is impossible without God. Not being able to rely on anything you have. But realizing that you are love still. knowing that you know nothing. but theres somebody out there.
I have been shook to my core
